Thursday, June 26, 2008

Well... I'm going to stay for now...

I have not been here in some time. Last time was the day that I felt like bagging it all, and leaving. I tried, I really looked into it. But the thing I realized as I was looking into going was that I am where God wants me to be, and leaving would mean walking away from the mission God has given me right now.

At that point I realized that I was trying to control the processes of the dissolution of my marriage. I was trying to control what other people and the courts did. I thought God had abandoned that part of my life, and that I could do a better job by forcing others to take responsibility for themselves by abandoning them. When I came to the point of wanting to run away, God made it clear that He is in control of all that stuff too.

So I took control of the one thing that I actually have control of... my willingness to give over control to God. I thought about Adam and Eve... they had it good. God was in control. But when they let Satan convince them that they could take control, they tried... and we now live in the resulting world...

ok... I have my sister and niece here, and I'm being rude.. so bye bye...
()me