Saturday morning...

Hi empty space,
Mom has been with me for going on 3 days this time.. yesterday I got an email from a friend that made me take a hard look at what I am seeing in her. The friend suggested that mom's condition might not be Alzheimer's, but might instead be dementia. So I went googling.. It does seem that her symptoms are more consistent with dementia. The bright spot in this is that it might be something that can be changed. But, it might not, so I am going to be patient. Losing Dad and effectively losing mom in the same year has been a lot to take. Right now I feel so numb that I don't even care that Christmas is a week away. With all the punishment I have been taking mentally since 2005, I am not getting my hopes up about anything. Today I am letting her try to make some cookies in the kitchen... we'll see how that goes.

Last week I got to a place of deciding that I need to be making the hard choices and getting things moving so that my mom would move here permanently and my sister and her daughter can move on with their lives. (my sister and nice, now that's a whole other can of worms there...). Now I have to wonder if I am moving too fast. I guess we'll see what happens next week at the dr's. you see, mom's dr called my sister yesterday, and they also think it is dementia, and want to see mom next tuesday... which is a bummer because I was not planning to make an extra trip to VA next week.. ah well... I do want to find out what is wrong with mom.

ok.. well, I'm going to go for now.
-me