I reached the end of myself today. I've been here before, but it was different this time than in the past. In the last few years when I have gotten to this place I have thought very seriously about quitting the human race. Today I was writing out the list of things that need to be closed out, done, and cleaned up to be gone. I was thinking I would go as far as what was left when all was said and done would carry me, then starting over with nothing at that place. Live simple, take as little income as I could, maybe live in shelters... the point being I am tired of being in the rat race for the purpose of serving the system, other people, and the stuff that I have collected... I want to be rid of all the hangers on and stuff that takes me away from wanting to do everything for the God, that seems to want me here... When I got to the end of the list and realized how simple it will be, how it can be done so quickly... I began to think maybe there is someplace in the world that God can use me... that I can live the simple way I was thinking of, and make a difference in His kingdom at the same time. I have strength... I have built... I know something about technology... I like to serve... maybe I can go someplace in the world and be useful for more than the money I make... I know the courts won't agree, so I am not sure what will happen as I move forward with this, but I don't have enough of anything left to care what they take... We'll see what the next few weeks brings. We'll see if God wants me to serve Him in some other part of the world... I would hope that I would not feel like a slave in the place that God wants to use me... right now I feel like a slave and I am tired...
iTunes: Your not guilty anymore
-me
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