Rest... or the lack there of...

I was sitting here thinking about the fact that I don't dream anymore... I looked on line about this, and apparently I do dream I'm just not remembering them.  I don't know... If a tree falls in the forest and there is no one to hear it does it still make a noise... I say no.  The air still moves, but if there is nothing to process the movement of the air there is no noise... So my brain may or may not be doing something other than keeping me alive.  I may or may not be having R.E.M. episodes... But I don't have dreams right now.

The looking on line says: I'm not getting enough sleep, or I'm stressed, or I'm afraid of what I might be dreaming, or I'm just not designed to remember dreams.

I know it's not the last one.  I can still remember dreams from when I was a kid.  I can still remember that I used to have flying dreams all the time.  I can still remember that I used to have dreams that felt so real, I could have sworn that they were real life events.

Afraid to dream... That's an interesting one.  I was not having nightmares when I stopped dreaming.  I don't know what I might be afraid of, so I have to reach the conclusion that it's not about my fearing the dreams.

Stressed... well, I am stressed.  The thing that I can't seem to figure out, is how to let go of the stress.  I want to let it go.  I'm going to have to work harder on this one, or lack of dreams will not be my only problem...

Not enough sleep... I seem to wake at 5 or 6 each morning, no matter when I go to bed... that means many nights I am getting between 4 and 5 hours of sleep.  This is something I can do something about... I will start going to bed earlier.  Maybe it will help let go of the stress too..

This was all prompted by someone telling about a funny dream they had with me in it.  I miss dreaming...

bye empty space..

-me